Who Am I to Write a Book?

Who am I?  I have no writing experience.  I have no idea how to get a book published?  Who would pick up my book to read?  I'm just a mom.  I stay home all day and homeschool.  I'm not equipped.  I have nothing to say.  I have no idea what I'm doing.  

That's what Satan wants me to believe.  Those are lies from the enemy.  Jesus has given me a story.  It's definitely not the story I would have penned for myself but looking back, there is no part of my story I would erase.   Those difficult chapters has shaped me.  They've changed me.  They've taught me to depend on Jesus and learn to trust Him.  

When this idea of writing a book first popped in my mind I had fun with it.  I dreamed about it. I thought about it daily.  I journaled my story.  But I didn't dare tell anyone. After all, who am I to write a book?  When the idea came back day after day I began to question if I was just an unrealistic dream of mine or a promoting from the Holy Spirit.  When friends began telling me I should write my story down and share it with others, fear set in.  The what ifs, the inadequacies, the doubts consumed me.  But the idea never left my mind.  When my husband told me I needed to write a book I knew I had to pursue it.  

In July, the Lord laid the Israelites on my heart.  I journeyed with the Israelites last year as we prepared to move our family from Tennessee to Oregon and I am walking with them again in my daily quiet time.  While driving to an appointment one afternoon I was  filled with doubt.  I had no idea why I would write a book.  I remember asking, "Who and I?" But I prayed the entire way to the appointment that God would make it clear and leave no room for doubt.  I knew if He was indeed calling me, He would equip me.  As I parked my car I had a few minutes before my appointment so I opened my Bible  to Exodus 3, where I had left off in my prior time with the Lord.  

The words written in Exodus jumped off the page!  The Lord made it clear that He would be with me in this next part of our journey.

"But Moses protested to God, “Who am I to appear before Pharaoh? Who am I to lead the people of Israel out of Egypt?””‭‭“God answered, “I will be with you. And this is your sign that I am the one who has sent you: When you have brought the people out of Egypt, you will worship God at this very mountain.””
‭‭Exodus‬ ‭3:11-12

I have no idea what this completed book will look like.  I have no idea when it will be finished.  I have no idea who will read it.  I have no idea what the Lord will teach me on this journey.  I have no idea how He will use it to change lives and bring himself glory.  But this I know:  I must be obedient.  I must trust Him.  I know He will be with me, as He was with Moses.  And along the way, I will love the journey!